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May. 6th, 2012 | 10:01 pm

(I read this at an open mic last night, and a voice post is available here)
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He pulls into the driveway
outside it's thick and humid, the Georgia border
always hits like a warm washcloth.
Inside his truck
the air conditioning pumps clean and privileged icicles,
the skin on his arm smooth and thick
my hand touching his long thigh not an accident.
His gaze rides up my arm
and then he says,

"Is this because you're curious?"

For a moment, I have no idea what this fine, fine, fine-ass man is talking about.
Bi-curious?
Curious about...?
What on...ohhhhhh.

Twenty years ago, my father is opening the front door to a boy in a collared shirt,
looking him up and down,

"Couldn't you find anyone from our side of town?"

Fifteen years ago, I am dancing my way through college in a pair of thigh-high boots,
sequined garter wrapped around my first two hundred dollars tonight,
my nipples covered with cow-print pasties
(they were the last ones left)
dancing between the thighs of the last man on the left.
I am the last girl left, and his money the same color is still not money enough
south of the Mason-Dixon line.

Ten years ago, my big city lover swivels inside me, that motion white men just don't do.
Where do they learn it?
Standing on corners in hoodies?
"Yo, man, you gots ta swivel in the bitch--"
Shut up, dumb white girl, shut up, your privilege is showing!

Five years ago, nothing's hotter than a Marine,
I think it's the white belt
pulled through his hands, his palms the way I like my coffee and the backs
the way he likes his.

And here and now.
After the carnival.
After Tilt-a-Whirl and Alpine Bobsled, Power Surge and Freak-Out, Giant Wheel and
Monkey Jungle,
After the Merry-Go-Round, on which I am always still the princess of all I survey
I survey him next to me, in the driver's seat.
I am this tall and I would like to ride this ride.

Is it because I'm curious?

Yes, I say into his fingers at my lips,
I would like to find out

About your hand on my thigh, my cheek, wrapped around my throat.
I am wondering

What inappropriate and insensitive phrases will fill me to the mouth
when I am filled up with you
I have a desire to investigate,

To see your face cut into little stars
and how you'll die the little death
when I am on my knees, the privilege yours,
not so heavy a burden for one whose lineage was bred to bear--
no empty limbs above awaiting fruit.

Yes, I say, moving my hand to the corner of his collarbone and starting the long slide
down--
I am damn curious.




whipchick always rides the merry-go-round.


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MEE-shee  kay-TIN-skee  :)

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from: michikatinski
date: May. 7th, 2012 02:23 am (UTC)
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Hot!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:57 am (UTC)
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Thanks :) I'm going to read this tomorrow night at an open mic, and will try to record and post it as a voice!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:57 am (UTC)
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Thank you! I'm so glad it was easy to see :)

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A Sentient Being

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from: alien_infinity
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:09 am (UTC)
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This was well-written!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:58 am (UTC)
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Thank you!

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carcrash heart

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from: genesisdesire
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:20 am (UTC)
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You leave me breathless with these things. You paint the most perfect snapshots, that white belt through those coffee-black hands. There falls a flawless lyricism between the rides of the amusement park and the not-degrading idea of this man as a ride.

Oh, and oh, little stars and the little death, perhaps I'm selfish in loving references I know, but they are so lovely here, so lovely.

And I've commented on it before, you've somehow invented the rule of three for poetry, privilege and fine and curious and just. Dammit. You do the best words.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 7th, 2012 04:00 am (UTC)
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Yay, I'm so very very pleased you got those references! They're one of my favorite parts and I know for many people they'll have to stand on their own, but it's nice when someone gets the allusion, too.

Thanks - and I'm glad it seems "not-degrading" to you, too - I got to read this at an open mic the other night, to a mixed-race audience that included black men, and was so relieved that it didn't feel racist.

God bless the power of repetition :)

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similiesslip

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from: similiesslip
date: May. 7th, 2012 03:33 am (UTC)
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No one writes poetry quite the way you do.

Curiousity is such a strong pull isn't it? It amazes me that so many can settle on only one..at least for awhile.

This poem is amazing.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 7th, 2012 04:01 am (UTC)
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Thank you very, very much.

I still have curiosity a lot of the time, but it seems to be settling a bit now...

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jacq22

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from: jacq22
date: May. 7th, 2012 10:38 am (UTC)
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On dark dark nights I think like this, I was amazed at how much the poetry still said to me.
So write it down, keep it written, one day when you are my age you will be happy you did. The memories burn brighter than fire, and forever in some small place the desire is there. Beautiful, just loved it.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:35 pm (UTC)
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Thank you - and thanks for your beautiful and inspiring words.

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from: whirlgig
date: May. 7th, 2012 11:10 am (UTC)
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This is brilliant! My favourite line may be, "I am this tall and I would like to ride this ride", but I have about ten of them really. When don't I with your stuff?

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:35 pm (UTC)
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Thanks! That's my favorite, too! And it gets a laugh at open mic - an uncomfortable laugh!

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SuperCAILEfragilistic

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from: caile
date: May. 7th, 2012 06:13 pm (UTC)
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This is gorgeous and sexy and complicated and I love it.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:36 pm (UTC)
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Thank you, I'm so pleased you enjoyed :)

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Myrna

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from: myrna_bird
date: May. 7th, 2012 06:23 pm (UTC)
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I am so glad you write in this competition. I selfishly live vicariously through all your entries. Thank you!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:37 pm (UTC)
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What a fabulous compliment! And you really make me feel good - I think that one of the obligations of getting to have the life I have and love is to do my very best job reporting it back, so that other people can enjoy it, too. Cheesy, but something I strive for, so I'm glad it's working for you!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:38 pm (UTC)
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So pleased to hear that :)

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from: faerie_spark
date: May. 8th, 2012 12:44 pm (UTC)
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MMM, raw, sensual, edgy. I like it! *takes a deep breath*

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:38 pm (UTC)
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Thank you! That's exactly what I'm hoping for!

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C.S. Inkheart

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from: frecklestars
date: May. 8th, 2012 02:11 pm (UTC)
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Fantastic! (Not that I expect anything else from you...) Would love to hear the voice post, if that did end up happening.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 03:38 pm (UTC)
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Thank you! And it did, indeed - http://angelsintheair.com/Data/media/curiosity.mp3

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A Karmic Sandbox

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from: karmasoup
date: May. 8th, 2012 10:16 pm (UTC)
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Let's hope curiosity doesn't kill the pussy kitty.


(Btw, is the title an intentional / poetic misspelling?)

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 8th, 2012 11:38 pm (UTC)
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:) Thanks!

Turns out "curiosity" is one of the words I can't spell - thanks!

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basric

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from: basric
date: May. 9th, 2012 02:01 am (UTC)
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Psssst. Steamy, hot hot hot.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 10th, 2012 05:51 am (UTC)
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Love the icon - you have the best icons! Thanks, glad you enjoyed :)

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m_malcontent

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from: m_malcontent
date: May. 9th, 2012 04:28 pm (UTC)
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Excellent poetry.

I think sex, while it has been misused in the name of subjugation, black/white as well as male/female is itself, untainted a force for tolerance and brotherhood.

Well done poem!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: May. 10th, 2012 05:51 am (UTC)
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Thank you very much, and I totally agree - it's so much easier to be "equal" with someone when you are in the process of discovering them naked :)

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