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Dec. 14th, 2015 | 01:23 pm

There’s a box.

Maybe it’s a glass box, some kind of thick aquarium-y barrier designed to keep sharks from eating snot-nosed brats who richly deserve digestive absorption. Or scratched-up polymer like a check-casher’s window, two layers of don’t-shoot-me-I-just-want-thirty-percent. Or even cardboard, like the washing machine boxes we made into forts, sawing out windows with a steak knife (friendship metaphor, hint of danger).

Anyway.

Inside the box there’s only the faintest communication. Scratches at the cardboard. Taps on the plastic. Sign language through the glass, only one of us speaks ASL and one of us speaks British. Semaphore, except all we have are hors d’oeuvres flags (‘tartare’ or ‘Casu Marzu’ or ‘sweetbreads’).

You get it.

But there’s something I have to say. And I don’t know just how this thing has become a mountain, how every day of silence adds a stone, as it's become increasingly clear, this thing will not clear up on its own.

Blah blah blah box metaphor.

There’s only so many ways a writer can share. Fiction, in which we pretend that people other than ourselves have problems and some of those problems have solutions and looking at the ones that don’t is still entertaining. Nonfiction, in which we pretend to have distance, perspective, and possibly even closure. (Closure! I have an essay’s worth of closure! And then the story continued and it wasn’t finished any more.) Poetry, in which we pretend that other people are interested in our problems, and they clap politely, or if they are feeling ironic, snap their fingers like beatniks, like Audrey Hepburn in Funny Face, after she says to a number of people that she’s not pretty. With a straight face. For thirty minutes of screen time. (Fiction.)

I’m pretty.

I’m okay with that. For example, I say, the fastest way to change a tire is to stand by the wheel, holding the lug wrench by the wrong end. Then someone will pull over and change it for you, and all it costs is the appropriate equivalent of ‘My hero!’

I have done that.

More than once.

And maybe bitch bitch white bitch privilege bitch bitch, but let’s face it, pretty’s not fixing this. Pretty’s not getting me out of the box. Or even giving me better hors d’oeuvres flags (‘fig jam’). Pretty’s no shield against the boomerang, the razor-sharp ninja star, the Viking axe bouncing back at me off the plastic, ricochet-ricochet-ricochet-skull.

The plastic cutting me off from you. The box protecting you from the axe. Because that’s the problem. No matter how kind or well-meaning or even true the thing is, the thing is still an axe. And because I am a coward, I would rather sit in a box, with an axe, than throw the axe at you.

This is where we leave me.

In a box.

Without closure.

With a labored metaphor.

With an axe.




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Whipchick thinks you should totally look up Casu Marzu. But not while eating.



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Jenn

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from: kickthehobbit
date: Dec. 14th, 2015 06:35 pm (UTC)
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I'm kind of disturbed that I didn't have to Google to know what Casu Marzu was.

Great meta. :)

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:25 am (UTC)
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I was trying to think of the nastiest buffet ever!

Thanks :)

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John Louis

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from: grail76
date: Dec. 14th, 2015 06:55 pm (UTC)
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Nice images.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:26 am (UTC)
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Thank you!

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dmousey

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from: dmousey
date: Dec. 14th, 2015 09:30 pm (UTC)
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Well, I don't think I'll be trying and Casu Marzu. Ewww... (laughing) What you describe here, is probably how my husband feels about the walls I've built. I don't envy either the builder, or would be destroyer.

Hugs and peace~~~D

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:27 am (UTC)
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Apparently one must not look directly at the cheese while eating in case you get a maggot in the eye...

Thanks for reading!

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blink

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from: yachiru
date: Dec. 14th, 2015 11:43 pm (UTC)
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The ending makes me happy and angry but mostly happy. I did know what Casu Marzu was because I am obsessed with curdled cow juice.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:27 am (UTC)
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Cheese is the most glorious of foods!

Thanks for going with the ending - I'm hoping it reads as unsatisfying on purpose :)

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Raised by Wolves

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from: sinnamongirl
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 12:18 am (UTC)
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Good meta stuff going on! I've also done the "hold a tool and look helpless" sort of thing, so that resonated with me... though even when I'm holding a tool and wielding it like I know what I'm doing, there's always someone who'll come along and want to do it for me. Which is just annoying.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:28 am (UTC)
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And they always say "little lady..."

It's a blessing and a curse.

Thanks for reading!

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Teo Says

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from: eternal_ot
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 01:35 pm (UTC)
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Great Imagery ! and Ewww...WT* ...for Casu Marzu..:D

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:29 am (UTC)
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Give me a good paneer any day of the week!

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swirlsofblue

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from: swirlsofblue
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 04:32 pm (UTC)
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I love the way you build and convey this metaphor, brick by brick with intriguing ideas.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:29 am (UTC)
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Thank you :)

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tonithegreat

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from: tonithegreat
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 05:45 pm (UTC)
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There's an air of frustration here that really works for me in part because I feel I haven't quite connected the dots and it's that whole frustrating boomerang thing. . .

Also casa marzu----- gross!!!!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:29 am (UTC)
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Thanks - I don't know if it completely works as a piece, I was going for an unsatisfying ending, which is...unsatisfying :)

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rayaso

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from: rayaso
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 06:15 pm (UTC)
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I love the way the frustration builds until then end, when, expecting closure/release, you withhold it. Great metaphor, and your usual great writing.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:31 am (UTC)
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Thanks! I'm having a hard time finding my stride right now, possibly because I'm working on so many other people's work - I've got a book and a short story in the editing queue, and I'm taking a workshop in January where I need to read and comment on 10 other people's pieces...25 pages each...It's good writing but it's a bunch of time. So I appreciate the encouragement!

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millysdaughter

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from: millysdaughter
date: Dec. 15th, 2015 07:16 pm (UTC)
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now I guess I need to google that term - because I have no clue

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:31 am (UTC)
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Would you eat it, now that you know?

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kick_galvanic, zagzagael, skull_theatre

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from: bleodswean
date: Dec. 16th, 2015 12:10 am (UTC)
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This is a really, truly difficult piece. I think you threw the axe.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:33 am (UTC)
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I think maybe I did :(

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Laura, aka "Ro Arwen"

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from: roina_arwen
date: Dec. 16th, 2015 01:59 am (UTC)
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I pull the "cute" card a lot, lol. And ewwwww on that cheese!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:44 am (UTC)
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Sisters in cuteness!

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Dan

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from: muchtooarrogant
date: Dec. 16th, 2015 02:47 am (UTC)
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Ouch, may you escape the box soon.

Liked the forts/steak knives reference. Did that! *grin*

Dan

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:45 am (UTC)
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Thanks :)

Remember how the box was a fort, and then the windows got bigger and the structural integrity started to go, and then we'd just roll around the yard in it until it was a floppy cardboard tube?

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carinda

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from: eeyore_grrl
date: Dec. 16th, 2015 10:13 am (UTC)
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I like cheese. We are a cheese loving household. My husband is originally from Switzerland. My son is 5 and will eat all sorts of various cheeses. He goes through the Whole Foods cheese section like a proper cheese monger. But, let me be clear, if we find insect larvae, alive or dead, in our cheese it's going in the trash. Real quick-like!

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:47 am (UTC)
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I have to say, I'm a pretty adventurous eater, and I don't think I could face it!

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Your argument is invalid.

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from: logical_fallacy
date: Dec. 16th, 2015 06:54 pm (UTC)
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I'd totally eat Casu Marzu, just to say I tried it.

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whipchick

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from: whipchick
date: Dec. 17th, 2015 11:48 am (UTC)
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I love trying new stuff at least once! That's how I ended up eating whale and horse in Iceland.

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