June 24th, 2013

London

Cards on the Table

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              the aerialist who started in a wheelchair looks at the aerialist who finished in a wheelchair and says

whenever someone says inspiring!
I think you mean sexy
only lately I have stopped thinking it and started to speak it
opening my mouth            pouring out my thoughts the way my breath flows out with a gasp

when I come

the way my breath flows out with a gasp          when my boxing coach hits hard
the way my breath flows in around cock           and pussy and chocolate
the way their breath flows in with a gasp when they say inspiring! which means

sit in this box because I am comfortable with you there

                 the way their breath flows in with a gasp when I say

sexy which points out
                 there is a pussy in this chair, a particularly succulent one. But saying

sexy--you mean sexy--is better than my eight-year-old self screaming
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
and better than my now self saying

fuck you

and it probably makes me more friends than fuck you which lets them put me in the box of

it's so sad she's angry because she's so sad
                and I would have to waste a lot of time explaining that no

the high counters of the post office
London's lack of curb cuts
airline porters who want to check my chair and push me in their chair
make me angry

my marriage makes me sad

you--you--just make me tired.

                the aerialist who started in a wheelchair looks at the aerialist who finished in a wheelchair             (right now she doesn't get it              right now this year is really just a dream and any minute now any minute now any minute

                now

she will wake up

                please)

                the aerialist who started in a wheelchair shakes her head and says

Let's work on climbs.


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Erin in leopard
for Erin Clark, who always puts her cards on the table

(photo by Eunoia Images)
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